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71. Weekly Update

Dear Readers, There nothing much that happened this week. I was lazing around. Sometimes cleaning. I did go out for like 3 days of the week. In the evenings, my mother and I would try stepping out of the house so I don’t feel stuck within 4 walls. I do have a clearer path that I want to follow the remainder of this year. I don’t want to jump the gun, but I also don’t want to stop trying. This week I realized how important family members are and how… Read more 71. Weekly Update

70. Random Update

Dear Readers, I’m just writing because I felt like I wanted to write this most random blog ever. It’s 2 am right now. I’m sitting in my pajamas, listening to all my favorite songs. I’m in a really good place right now. I feel no stress what-so-ever. My whole world has gone upside down. I don’t think I would be getting into the college that I really wanted to. I spent like my entire vacation on this, but because of the stupid mistakes I made while attempting those answers, I… Read more 70. Random Update

69. Restocking(!)

Dear readers, This blog is just to restock my assets, see what’s what and how I’m currently feeling. That includes what can be done to improve how I am feeling or what I should avoid doing. Not much is happening with my life. I’m still waiting on those four colleges. For the past month my goals were not met. I was getting irritated with everybody. My friends have started getting placed into different colleges/offices and they’ve already started going for regular classes or to work. I’m not going to lie,… Read more 69. Restocking(!)

68. Dejected

Dear Readers, I don’t know where my head is at. I did move on from the last failure by writing another exam and getting interviewed by another college. I’m awaiting their decision to pick me for their course. I have two other exams next week. One exam sometime mid June. I’m growing more and more anxious. I’m afraid that I’ll never be good enough to get selected for any college. What if I’m not smart? What if I don’t have what it takes? What if I’m just a bull-shitter who’s… Read more 68. Dejected

67. The Day I Failed

Dear Readers, What have been doing ever since my last blog? I’ve been studying. I wrote an exam. I went for a personal interview because I passed the exam. I personally thought I did quite well. But today I found out that I didn’t get selected for the program. It hurt. It felt like someone pulled the rug from under my feet. It took me two hours just to digest the fact that I’m not going to one of the colleges I wanted to get selected at. I’m not blaming… Read more 67. The Day I Failed

66. Fourth Anniversary

Dear Readers, Today, the 7th of April, marks my fourth anniversary of blogging as ‘Realistic Beginner’. For those who’ve recently started reading my blogs, I’ve had different kinds of blogging websites and many more blog posts before these 66 blog posts which I’d deleted for many reasons which I have mentioned in my previous blogs. Blogging (or writing, in general) has truly been one constant thing in my life that has remained with me ever since I was a child. It’s my escape. I may not write regularly, I may… Read more 66. Fourth Anniversary

65. RB is Back

Dear Readers, There is no excuse for me to not be writing my weekly blog. I’ve just been out of it. I’ve had so much to do and I put myself under a lot of pressure which did not allow me to free my mind and think about writing, to be honest. Well I’m trying to be back. I’m trying to start writing again because I miss it. There is so much that’s happened in the last 4-5 months which I can’t fathom to explain everything in detail. I did… Read more 65. RB is Back

64. Reflection

Dearest Readers, This week was good. I did have a few productive hours. Obviously I want this duration of productive hours to be a hell of a lot more. But I see progress and I’m happy that there is progress. Last year this time I had learnt that it is not good to keep things to myself and I started sharing. I’m so glad. I learnt the importance of letting people into my life. Because, the bonds that I share with my three family members and a couple others are… Read more 64. Reflection

63. All Over The Place

Dear Readers, Everything seems distasteful. It’s not like something is wrong. It’s not like I’m experiencing extreme negative feelings or hurtfulness. I just don’t feel like doing anything. For the past 2 months, I have zero motivation. I don’t feel like watching matches anymore. I don’t feel like blogging anymore. I don’t feel like playing the violin anymore. I don’t feel like working out anymore. I don’t feel like stepping out of the house anymore. I don’t want to do something new. I don’t feel like writing. I don’t feel… Read more 63. All Over The Place