80. Goodbye 2019

Dear Readers,

Today’s the 31st of December, 2019. I wanted to write a blog on Sunday like I normally do but I thought I’ll write it on the last day of the year. Well, the year 2019 has had a lot of downs but an equal number of ups as well.

It’s been a year of extremities. I’ve either been extremely happy or I’ve been extremely unhappy. Looking back, I honestly don’t know how I feel about this year. I hate it but I also love it. I can’t make up my mind. But what I do know and honestly believe that I’m okay with whatever happened. I made my peace with it. I did learn a lot of things from both, the bad and the good experiences. I learnt how I want to live my life next year and what I want to avoid doing the next year.

This year has been a lot of firsts for me and I love that I did those things irrespective of how fearful it may have seemed. They are definitely the highlights of my year and they are without a shadow of a doubt my most cherished memories of this year. These things are the reason why my year doesn’t seem that bad. I woke up this morning and I was ecstatic about who aren’t in my life anymore and who still are.

This next year is going to be crazily tough if certain things don’t happen. I sincerely hope and wish that what I want to happen should happen. I’ll be heartbroken if it doesn’t. I know it’s silly to have such fixed expectations but I need them to happen. Either plan A or plan B. Let’s see how the year 2020 unfolds.

I will be writing a list of things I will work to change everyday of the year in my personal journal. I will also be writing a list of things I want to achieve in the year 2020. Thank you C, P, A, A, L, K, P, P, S, D, T, M, J, R, L, A, V and M for being in my life. Some of them played a role only for like a part of the year and some of them have stayed throughout and they’re still a major part of my life. (to maintain discretion I’ve used the starting letter of their names)

Hope you all have an amazing year ahead. I hope your year did go well. What is it that you learnt from the year 2019 and what do you feel about the new year?

With loads of love and best wishes I wish you all a very happy new year.

Realistic Beginner.


  1. I hope your 2020 brings your nothing but the best! However, although you’re entitled to your desires, be open to certain things crumbling for a reconstruction of a much more massive outline in your life. Nothing gets taken away without an upper scale replacement.

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  2. 🙂 It was refreshing reading your raw honesty 🙂 I honestly don’t know what last year was. It seemed to be one thing after another, and like you some pretty, some not so pretty. For me more than not, it wasn’t pretty 🙂 There were some of the most drastic changes ever encountered(on my end anyway) but here we are, still here. That is hopeful 🙂 As long as we can learn something, and move ahead, right? I pray this year is better for you, and it seems with that long list of first letters you have great people to support you and that is a blessing 🙂

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    • There were a few drastic changes for me as well. I can only imagine how hard these drastic changes might have been. But I agree, we are still here and we’re still standing. This only helps us become stronger. And yes, I am blessed to have a lovely set of close friends and family. Thank you for this heartfelt comment. Hope you have an amazing 2020 and may you be the recipient of loads of love and happiness 🙂

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  3. I too explain myself always, guess its so no one misunderstands me. Leeches will always be out there, forever searching for hosts. The trick is to learn to spot them early and pull them off quickly (speaking metaphorically of course 🙂).
    Be you is all I can say. All the best in 2020. Thank you for reading my post.
    Always 🌎✌🏻❤️

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