58. Negative Week
I haven’t really been doing justice to the blog. I am having trouble sicking to a schedule and if I’m not completing all the tasks in a said day, I think I’m worthless and I question my self-worth. This week, I had a lot of trouble with my own self. This whole week was me seeking gratification from others because I felt I wasn’t worthy enough. I even thought of stupid horrible things that I thought I’d gotten rid of a long back. But it all came back to me, this week. I hated every inch of my body. I didn’t like what I was doing. I thought I was worthless and I deserve nobody. I even tried to push all the people in my life away by saying stupid things. This week was filled with negativity and this was the worst week I have had this year. The frequency of one whole bad has clearly reduced to once a year but I don’t want it to ever happen again. I need to trust myself more. I need to believe in myself more. I also found out my IQ, this week which boosted my self confidence right back up. I am ready for this week. I have a lot to do. May nothing terrible happen. May you and I have a great week ahead. Goodbye.