47. A Letter To Family Member #1
Yes, this is going to be a letter series for a couple more weeks because there haven’t really been situations for me to tell this individually to them or I’ve been to shy to tell them this. So this is a letter to one family member that I respect the most. So here goes:
Dear Family Member #1,
I’ve known you my whole life. You are able to read me thoroughly. You could tell, easily. You know almost everything about my life. You’ve known more than anyone else. You are really good at understanding the situation, comprehending it, rationalising it and coming up with a logical response. You have your own self doubts (just like the rest of us) but I’ll still look up to you and seek for your advice/motivation because no one does it better.
Our relationship is unimaginable. I don’t want to get into specifics, because I don’t really want the world to know how much you mean to me. But the phrase “I’d kill for you” would be apt here 😀 And also, I would gladly give my life for you (I’m an egotistical ass, so this definitely means something)
We don’t really know each other’s everyday happenings but we know each other. And to be honest, that means a lot. Something silly like I know you’re capable of asking me “was posting such letters really necessary?” And to be honest, it’s not really that necessary. And I was never going to write them and post them online. Especially because I’m extremely secretive about my life and my family or loved ones. These letters are not for other people to read. These letters are for me. These letters are for my satisfaction. Writing these letters gives me joy.
I love you. I have never said this to your face. But I truly do. You mean the world to me. I respect you. I admire you. I envy you. We may have our differences. We may think differently. We may have physical fights. But I am who I am because of you. Yes, there are other very few people that are shaping me into being the 20 year old girl that I am but you contributed to 60% of what makes me, me.
If someone asks me what are the top three childhood memories that I’d always cherish, you’re definitely in all three of them. You’re also the benchmark that I’ve set when I’m speaking with any person. The shit that my friends are doing, I’ve seen it already because of you. Sometimes, I understand and don’t judge them and wholeheartedly accept them because I’ve seen the things you’ve done.
I could listen to you talk all day. If I’m ever doing something, in my head, I’d always think if you’d be okay with it, or if you’d understand why I did it (even if there’s a 1% chance of you being okay with it, I do it without any hesitation, otherwise I don’t). I don’t believe in being blessed or having someone to thank for to have you in my life. I’d just want to thank the parenting styles that have been adopted to make you and I who we are and how close we are.
You’re strong. You’re capable. You’re much more. Thank you for not being stupid (I’m sure you’d say the same for me). Thank you for everything. I’m super glad to have you in my life!
Your family member.
Hope you all liked this letter that I’ve written to a family member. Share your thoughts in the comment section below. Hope you all have a great Sunday and a lovely week ahead.