38. Need For Structure
I feel like I have so much to say but nothing too trivial. I have had a lot of work, this week. Under a lot of emotional strain mainly from procrastinating until the very end when the panic monster wakes up.
Emotionally this week seemed uninteresting and dull. Mainly the people who I got surrounded with were very negative about their life and that affected me. I also got affected by a lot of insignificant things because I was afraid that I was going back to my “shell”. I overtly wanted to scream the things I want to say, but I didn’t do it. Which is, in a way, bad. I feel like I don’t have things in control.
Physically I have been going to the gym almost every day of this week, and now that I can start seeing physical changes in my body, I’m liking it more.
I need to really learn time management. I don’t get things done as quickly as I’m supposed to. It’s like I don’t have a proper structure in life. I need to get things in order. I need to set things right.
I need to bring positive vibes into the environment and discard the negativity that my environment is offering me.
This is all for this week. Hope you all have a great week ahead.