31. What next?
It’s true when they say that change is the only thing constant in life. I am a walking-talking example of change because my life changes on a regular basis. I don’t have a fixed pattern and I don’t think I ever will. And I love that about my life.
Steve Jobs once said, “You can’t connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect the dots looking backwards. So you will have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in the future.“
So, now looking back, every major change in my life has always started with me reading a phrase/sentence or someone telling me a phrase/sentence that sparks something in me and eventually leads to a major change in life.
The first major change that happened, was when I was extremely low, mildly depressed and had zero self-esteem. Someone told me then that with time everything will be alright. And with time, I’ll learn how to be perfectly fine with who I am and with time I’ll be happy.
And with time, I did eventually learn how to be happy.
Once I’d learnt that, a few weeks later, when I was having a deep conversation with somebody we got to talking about the people in our life and how important it is to have the right set of persons by your side. And how the right set of persons are an important factor to that said search of happiness.
And once I realised who really matters and who are on my priority list, life became much simpler and my happiness meter went up a notch.
After a few months, I felt something was lacking. And when discussed, someone told me that maybe I need to more with my time and be more productive and have a few things to do on a daily basis. I started doing more. I enrolled in a few classes. Some long term. Some short term. I try to keep myself busy as much as I can.
Now, that everything seems fine and everything feels right, I heard this line that struck a chord. That line goes like this – “if you feel like you are doing something right for a long period of time, then you’re doing something wrong”.
Which brings me to my next quest. What am I doing wrong? Where have I gone wrong? What should I do now? What should I do differently? What should I change about my life now?
Someone told me to hang in there and continue doing whatever it is I am doing. And put more effort in things that I’m already doing. Agreed. Maybe more effort is what I need to focus on. But that is where my head is at. Let’s see how putting in effort plays out in connecting the dots. That’s all for this week. Please share your thoughts on this blog. Have a great week ahead.