20. Long Lost Love

Dear readers,

Let me tell you about my relationship with dance. I started dancing when I was four years old. I love dancing. I was very flexible. I could do splits, handstands with such ease. Now, I’m just a fat potato who can’t do anything, properly. Without trying to boast much, I used to be proud of the way I danced. I took part in a lot of programs in school and outside school, as well. What is dance to me?

Dance. Dance is like meditation. When I’m dancing, I am free. When I’m dancing, dance is all I think about. Dancing takes all my problems away. I’m not thinking when I’m dancing. The beats. The way my body moves to the tune. I feel utmost happiness when I’m dancing. I’m just trying to explain what I feel when I’m dancing. Dancing brings out my emotions. Dancing overwhelms me. Dancing makes me smile. Sometimes, when people ask me ‘what does dance mean to you?’, I often say some random adjective that comes to my mind, then. But, what dance means to me, can never be put into words. And to be honest, it’s something that I don’t want to put into words.

So, why did I stop dancing? I stopped dancing because I wasn’t confident anymore. I stopped dancing because I was dealing with a lot of other things that needed immediate attention. I stopped going for dance classes. But, it was mainly because of lack of self-confidence. Even now, you ask me to go stand in front of the crowd and dance, I wouldn’t be able to. I wasn’t able to dance in front of my friends, but lately that’s changing.

So I have been working out for a few months, now. And one among the main reasons for me to do that, is to bring my body to be able to do things that I could do, with such ease. I want that back. I want my flexibility back. I want to be able to dance the way I used to. I want to be intoxicated by the feeling that dancing gives me. I may or may not show-case it to the world. But, I want to do this, just for me. For my own joy. I was like a rubber-band. Now I’m a stone. I want to be a rubber-band again. I want to love dancing again. If dancing was a person, then, I’m the idiot who let go of it, because I was dealing with my own problems and couldn’t give it enough attention. It’s a long lost love, that like many love stories, went away, because I was too stubborn. And now, I want it back. I hope it gives me another chance πŸ˜€ But, in all seriousness, I would love to give dancing another try and hope it works out.

What am I waiting for? Nothing. I’m just making excuses. It’s just fear. I’m afraid that what if I’m not able to do the things that I used to be able to. And I know what you all will say. That, I’ll never know unless I try it. And, I agree. I’ll never know until I try. Maybe I should just give it a try. Writing a blog about dancing made me want to dance. And that’s something I never thought I’d say. It made me realise what I was missing out on. Sometimes, we tend to forget about the things that gives us utmost joy. And I’m glad I wrote down my thoughts on dancing. Maybe, I’ll even give dancing another try. I’ll suck at it. But with practice, I’m sure I can bring the spark back. And I hope I do. Hope you all have a great week ahead.

Regards,
Realistic Beginner.

12 Comments »

  1. You should definitely try dancing again. I believe that when we put our mind to something,we can do it. We may fail or be scared in the beginning, but it’s worth a try. Please, for all the love you’ve shown about dancing, you have to do it! You’ll see you can be happy dancing again!
    Try dancing by yourself if you don’t feel so confident. Practice on your own st first. But don’t let it go again!
    You have a passion and that is what world needs. More passionate people. Passion and dedication can change the world!
    Change yours and you may be able to change other’s too!!

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  2. Inspirational. Honest. Down-to earth. Relatable. I mean damn this makes me want to start exercising and makes we want to think about what I gave up and if it’s worth it. I feel like I wrote this just you know wow!!

    I have been following you for a while now and I feel like with every post I relate more to you and I guess I blog about similar topics, like my life and my emotions and feelings and stuff. I would love for you to have a look at it and tell me your views. πŸ™‚ Thanks

    Love,
    Girlalert xxx

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